As I watched Antonio
Banderas on the big screen,
playing a late-middle-aged Pablo Picasso,
playing a late-middle-aged Pablo Picasso,
I was drawn into the
current of his passions.
His love of painting was a big focus,
but it was hard to miss
the other great passion of his life:
women.
He was replete with wives and
mistresses,
and it seemed
somehow right that he would live by his own rules.
It seemed completely natural that a man with such talent
It seemed completely natural that a man with such talent
would not see the world
the way the rest of us are expected to.
When you are filled by
and hungry for
art,
and hungry for
art,
you cannot color
yourself inside the lines.
Rules are illusions –
straw barriers masquerading
as concrete,
easy to brush away and
pass through.
Rules are for people
without the ability
to imagine their own
reality and fill a canvas with it.
Rules are absorbed subconsciously,
and silently provide structure while the artist fills in around them
with color and light,
pulled from the visions
in his mind...
So, if Picasso was
inspired by Dora's photography,
and settled by
Francoise's steadiness,
and drawn repeatedly to
Marie-Therese for her ability to please him,
despite being married
to Olga,
then why shouldn't he
connect with each of them,
taking into his heart,
his bed, or his brush,
the gifts they had for
him?
Each love he claimed
allowed him to
expand.
I can see him with each
of them,
focused on the moment,
and on the light in their eyes;
and on the light in their eyes;
so far removed from
cultural and societal norms
that he wasn't affected
by the expectations of the outside world;
he would love Dora how
and when he was moved to,
and he would spend
peaceful days with Francoise and their daughter, Maya,
when he was moved to do that.
He would then love another, and another,
the same as he had always done before.
He operated within his own plane of existence -
it may have looked like he lived in our world,
but his genius built the dimension in which he resided.
He was a man living
within his own rhythm;
each of the women merely
joined him there for a brief time.
I don't know why I am so at ease with his unorthodox ways
(would I be so cavalier if he loved me?)
but maybe it's because I
wish I had the balls to live like that -
utterly on my own terms,
and with the power
to forge my way against the tides of society,
an Amazon Warrior
birthed by Aphrodite and Shakespeare.
Reality is what we can accept, and what we decide it should be,
so in a sense, we all make our own rules, don't we?
so in a sense, we all make our own rules, don't we?
It's just that most of us aren't as bold or creative
as the Picassos of the world,
as the Picassos of the world,
and make only small tweaks and minor adjustments
to the template of society's rules,
to the template of society's rules,
rather than rewriting the whole Magna Carta in technicolor.

Les Demoiselles d'Avignon, 1907
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